I adore you

I love hearing you say you are mine,

And knowing that I am yours.

There is a real sense of just being cherished and adored and I want you to feel the same in return.

I love the fact that my day starts with your touch and ends with your whispered word in my ear.

I love the way my body responds to your command like it's always known the voice that caresses this soul into submission.

People may say it's wrong,

And that it's too soon.

And that we're a little bit crazy!

Well "Hell Yeah!"

I am crazy,

And it's probably moving way too fast,

But wrong?

God No.

I have waited for you in the shadows of life,

Silently whispering your name,

Hoping you would find your way home in the dark.

And now you're here.

My heart is full,

My soul once more is at peace,

And my spirit soars on enchanted wings,

Drawing it's strength from the beauty of this pure love.

I simply adore you...

Adoringly yours,

Sugar x

You are beautiful

I know I took the words from the song, but I can't think of a better phrase to tell you just what you mean to me.

You have this amazing ability to make my insides turn to mush and yet at the same time, lift my spirits and strengthen my resolve with just a few simple words.

I am in awe of you more and more each passing day. I think you are the single most amazing person I have ever met, and believe me that is saying something, I've had a fairly colourful life up until now but I am more than ready to sit back and blend into the monochrome and just live, I mean really live not just exist, which is what I think I have been doing all these years.

I never knew that life could be so sweet, my life was already full before you came along..but now I can't possibly imagine 'life' without you in it.

You have bought so much joy into my life in such a small space of time, I am at a loss as how to express myself.

Words that used to come so easily, words that now seem to drip so effortlessly from your lips are buried deep inside me.

There are no words for this feeling.

This Love seems to of captured not only heart but my tongue!

I long to share each waking moment with you and each evening's Goodnight. I ache for the future we can both see stretched out before us.

A family coming together.

Two souls, restless and alone, not really searching but finding each other all the same.

And knowing instantly that your hand fits in mine,

Your spirit dances with the same passion without hearing the song,

Your soul smiles at this familiarity,

As your heart beats in perfect time with my own.

I know with every fibre of my soul that I am yours and that feels so fuckin good.

God I love you!

Adoringly yours,

Sugar x

I'm kind of lost right now,
In a good place...
But so out of control!
I might as well be tied and bound,
For all the good my decisions seem to make.
I'm certain I know what I want,
I know what feels good,
And what feels so totally right,
But is it?

I must admit it's only others self doubt that have me in this quandary,
If it weren't for well meaning friends and loved ones I would be totally alone in the darkness, but as it is I am not.
My heart is full,
Brimming over in fact,
And my head is mesmerized by this overwhelming feeling of adoration,
And it's merciless intoxication.
But I must step back,
Look at this picture and really see it,
Not just live it and breath it,
For it's not only my future,
But the path my loved ones must follow also.
So really I owe it not only to them but to myself to double check I have the right directions this time!

Adoringly yours,

Sugar x

Pieces of my Heart

Deep in the soulful confines of my heart,
I feel you.
I ache for your presence,
Constantly.
Each day that passes I feel my heart swell evermore,
I never knew here existed.
Your eyes that tell a thousands words,
Whisper reassuringly to my restless spirit.
Your voice, like liquid fire,
Strokes this wanton desire,
Yet, without touching.
There is no need,
Each word that leaves your lips,
Gently carresses my soul into submission.
And I go willingly,
For the passion that inflames these thoughts,
Is unrepentant,
Raging within itself,
Torturing my already crazed mind.
Dancing within the realms of Lust and Love,
Each one feeding off the other.
Deliciously oblivious to any sane thought,
Choosing only to know what is in my heart.
For it is you that has opened this door,
Allowed me in,
And held out your hand to hold,
The Pieces of my Heart.


I love you


Forever yours,


Sugar x

Explaining myself...

...well as fully as I can here.
Friday's post was because I was waiting for your call, needing to hear from you, hoping to hear...
I thought you were gonna call Wednesday, but No and Yes I understand that at times it is difficult for you and I appreciate that. But something you said played on my mind...
"I can't give you any kind of commitment because of my situation.....you know they come first. I really like you and I would love it if we're really close friends ...... you've been hurt and I'm worried that this is not what you need right now...."
You said quite a lot actually, not that I was listening at the time, cos all I wanted to do once I had you to myself was get close to you.
You were right of course.
I need more, right now I need commitment and security and a phone number I can actually use!!!
I went crazy for two days waiting for a phone call from a man who has very little of himself to give, and I have so much...so much inside of me just bursting to to convey to the world. But I don't want to hide, don't wanna shield myself from my friends.
I've hurt enough, and even though it was only a few weeks, I realised that I wanted way more than you were able to give, I'm sure I'm worth more than that.
The fucked up post was because I thought when we said Goodbye, the kiss..... that that was it, it didn't feel right, did it to you? I dunno whether it was nerves or just fate slapping us in the face, but I felt like it was pretty much one sided and that didn't make me feel too good.
I'm sorry you've not been able to get hold of me, it wasn't intentional. My phone went tits up this morning, yesterday I wasn't around and you know if you leave me a message I have no way of saying I received it or returning the favour either.....
My head is sorted at last, I know what I want.
I've just gotta sit and wait for that clock to tick a little more...

I hope we remain friends, I think your one of life's good guys and I'd like to think we made a connection, I guess maybe it just wasn't the right time for either of us.
Keep Smiling.

Adoringly yours

Sugar x

FUCK NO!

Fuck!

Fuck!!

Fuck!!!

Dammit I think I screwed up.

And there is fuck all I can do about it, except, to say I'm sorry.

I'm Sorry....

Adoringly yours

Sugar x

I have no control here

I still feel your presence,
Even after your whispered Goodbye.
Your taste lingers on my lips,
Intoxicating these veins with a 'demon' I try hard to control.
Desire ravages my thoughts,
As I struggle helplessly to still this fiery blood.
I have no control here.
My hands want to touch,
Needing to devour every inch of you.
Welcoming each curve and sinew,
Relishing every inch of this newness.
I can feel Lust's determined hands around my throat,
Kneading this wanton ache.
Feeding my hunger and yet...
Drenching me with a thirst that consumes each waking thought.
I have no control here.
My fingers longing to satisfy this need you have aroused once more,
Dance playfully amongst this wickedness.
Knowing there is only one end to this game,
My flesh burns as ambition envelopes each last thread of resistance.
For here in the flames of admiration,
I go willingly into this impassioned playground.
I have no control here,
And nor do I wish to!

Adoringly yours,

Sugar x