Away..for a while

This morning, in three and a half hours precisely my brother will be picking up myself and the kids and taking us to the airport, where at 9am we will board a flight to go see my Mum for two weeks of R & R... I can't wait.
This break has been a long time coming, it's been booked since April and promised for the last two years, sadly we will be one short, my eldest daughter's father hasn't allowed her to come (double Grrrrr) on this trip. The trip was booked when I was with Biker Guy, so not only do I have a spare ticket I can't fill I can't cancel it either, so I am at a loss in all directions.
I'm a little nervous about travelling on my own with the kids, we have E-tickets which we have to pick up on arrival so once they are in my hand and I am at the boarding gate I will be worry free, well that's if I've managed to keep my sanity with two tired, over excited and no doubt bored kids! I will be filling there rucksacks shortly with a whole manner of goodies to keep them occupied for the journey, with luck!
And what do I have in mine? A large dose of sanity and plenty of headache pills, I do not intend to go sleep tonight, for one I am afraid I may not wake up on time and I am my brother;'s alarm call and two, chances are I'd fall asleep just as the alarm was about to go off, so I'm biting the bullet and keeping awake all night and will hope to sleep on the plane.
Although sod's law I haven't been sleeping lately and tonight when i need to be awake, I feel incredibly tired...go figure!!
I still have cases to unpack and re-pack, took too many clothes last time we went, this time I am being ruthless, I mean how many clothes can you wear lying on the beach all day???
I am gonna miss my friends, my good friend C who I speak to at least twice a day will be on my mind while I am away I'm sure, I will be looking forward to a coffee and a gossip when I get back sweetheart.
And as for you I'm gonna miss your presence more than I dare to admit, you've become a shard of light in this constant darkness.
When I feel like my head is drowning in all this negative shit around me, there you are with a cheerful word or an optimistic notion.
I just want you to know I am appreciative of your time and although I yell for more I know that patience is a virtue...sadly virtue is not my middle name!
There maybe other's writing here while I am gone, or even myself if I can be bothered to drag myself out of the sunshine and into an Internet cafe...you never know the need to blog or at least read and comment on others is an almost irresistible urge.
So for now it's Au Revoir until I return.
Take Care of each other.

Adoringly yours

Sugar x